Not My Own Understanding

What a week it has been! With little man down for the count all week and random unexpectedness going on, I was beginning to feel like I had reached the end of sanity. I thought several times, "How much more can I take?" Thankfully, I was reminded of the scripture that goes something like this, "Trust in the Lord will all your heart and lean not into my own understanding, but in all thy ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths." Don't ask me where it's found, Proverbs I think. I have a pretty good bit of scripture memorized but have a hard time remembering where I found it. I digress.

The part that I kept coming back to and quite frankly was offering me a bit of solace in the situation was, "lean not into my own understanding." You see, I thought I was acknowledging God and trying really hard to trust, so it didn't make sense to me why things were not happening the way I thought they should be. After a very private cry fest (I'm a very public happy person, but as for other emotions, I tend to hold those very close to the heart.) and I good sleep, God again reminded me that His mercies are new every morning and great is His faithfulness. I'm glad because there were a few days last week that I was certainly glad to put a close to.

One last thing that I was reminded of while typing and thinking about the week's situations, was the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away. Too bad I can't choose what he gives and takes. It's probably better off that I don't. I am just going to have to keep on trusting.

Well, while I have a great deal to learn, I'm glad that God was faithful to bring His Word to my mind. It's been awhile since I have faithfully tried to learn new verses, but this year I am giving it a go to learn two a month with a group of women from the LPM blog. As much other randomness that I fill my brain with, I should be able to learn to two to four sentences in a months time, I hope.